there's this guy that i REALLY like i dont know if
he likes me too but his ex.. apparently he cant
forget her.. i dont know if i should just go on or move
on.. im sad and im confused his friends have been
telling him that he likes me and when we are
together i feel this sort of chemistry between us
and we really are very sweet but this girl i feel that
he still likes her even though its not what his
friends say i feel like he is just using me to forget
her.. you know what something happened that
made it worse we were together and suddenly he
kissed me on the cheek.. i dont know what to think
i have many ideas but i dont know i cant generate
a probable conclusion i dont know if i can tell this
to anyone there because i dont want to create an
issue but i really dont know what to do because i
really want to forget him but everytime i see him
my heat really aches so much that i think i should
let it come but i dont want to be a martyr again im
always hurt and i dont want it to happen again but
what if its a test that love is really like this and i
should'nt be quick to give up on it maybe its
something special because it doesn't go away.. i
seldom feel like this you know that my love is
special but can also be destructive to me if i give
it to someone who doesn't deserve it.. i dont
know.. i think its not the physical attraction, he's
not the prince charming that we have always
wanted, its not admiration, its okay if he doesnt
have talents, its not for the sake of
companionship.. just to have someone there to
hold me.. i lived without having a boyfriend for so
long surely i can live a little more without them but
still i like him for who he is... im confused if i
should give up something i know that is rare and
special or am i making a successful and smart
decision to not be deluded by these fantasies and
end up being hurt and torn in the end.. the sooner i
make this decision the better because every
passing moment that there is i fall more and more
but my conscience screams louder and louder.. i
cant listen to my heart because i dont know the
voice of my heart from the voice of my mind.. pls
im confused.. im not afraid of getting hurt because
im hurting right now.. thanks po